quick post from work...shhhh

I've started many many posts the last week or so but just don't have a whole lot to say really. At least not in the grand scheme of things. I'm in kind of a dark place right now emotionally and I tend to draw that inwards sometimes. I feel lonely in my thoughts and feelings yet don't know how or don't want to share them with anyone so I've closed my emotional book for now.

Life other than that is insanely busy. Too busy. I'm having a hard time finding any me time to relax, take in a good book or otherwise wind down. I'm definately in a rut. Working hard makes me happy. Really. It makes me feel needed, it gives my day purpose. No way I could be a SATW. So I guess I'll take the whole too busy to relax thing over the tired of relaxing thing but dang what I'd give to steal a day off, take a day to get my shaggy hair cut, sleep till noon, hang out in the yard, take care of my neglected flowers and garden. Ah well.

We are DONE with the flooring on the new deck. DH hurt his back pretty badly and has been advised to not over do or lift over 15 or so pounds so he's not much help. Not sure if its the tom boy in me or the cheep skate in me but for some reason, I refused to hire the rest of the job done so in any spare time I may have had the past couple of weeks, I've been working on the deck. I've learned how to run power tools I didn't even know existed. Its giving me a great sense of accomplishment, and a few wounds along the way. I'm hoping the built in bench, planter and railing will be done within a week or so. My step dad has been wonderful on advising me which steps to do next as well as helping me with the actually building part here and there.

See why I've started so many posts but not finished them? I'm borrrrring.