Ever feel like you're being gently prodded along to move forward? To do something? I feel like my mom, my DH, sometimes the entire world even are waiting for me to....I don't know. It makes me feel like a circus freak, they are waiting for me to perform my next act. "Lets see what she can get herself into now". DH mentioned I should start taking my metformin again. HUH? Why all the sudden should I? My mom asked if we were going to "keep trying". I don't know. Why do I have to know right this damn second?
I just want to get away. Just move on. Leave for a nice long trip all by myself. maybe someday I'll come back. come back to their inquisitive stares, their annoying questions and comments. Oh how nice it would be to be a loner, a drifter. To not have to answer to anyone but myself. For the first time in my life I can see why people leave everything behind, change their names and just start again..... ahhhh, the sweet freedom!
6 years ago
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I think I posted something similar a few weeks ago. Its funny how people think you need to move forward right now. The stasis was ok until....until it seemed something was possible and they think you need to jump over an invisible hurdle?
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